Post by pweddygurl on Dec 19, 2005 21:59:05 GMT -5
I wake up in the morning
but I stay inside my room
maybe the noise will stop,
sometime soon
Daddy's yelling about money,
Mommy's saying no,
Sissy wants her boyfriend,
to go everywhere we go
I try to keep away,
from everything they say
but this is my life ,
each and every day
I stay there in my room
for about an hour,
I glance at my knife,
and think of all the horror
but I try not to stare
at the shiny reflection,
my wrist all full of scars,
straight lines at perfection
tears stream down my face,
and splash onto the floor
blood runs down my arms,
then daddy comes threw the door
I quickly pull down my sleeve,
and tell him to "get out"
but he doesn't listen,
instead, he begins to shout
hes blaming me for something
that I didn't do
I say "I didn't do anything
how freaking stupid are you"
"I want some time for myself
just leave me the hell alone,
I can't even get any peace
not even in my own home"
he stares at me mad
and slaps me in the face
"Daddy no, please stop"
and my body starts to shake
Anna runs in my room,
and sees daddy there insane
she screams in his face
causing herself pain
he holds her down and hits her,
she tries to get away
but Daddy's there behind her,
holding her arms to stay
after hes done with his job
he says hes sorry for what he did
we always believed him
we were confused kids
he says"don't you dare tell Mommy"
"or else shes gone too"
me and sissy agree
not to tell her what we just went threw
Mommy tucks us in
and we all say goodnight
I wake up the very next morning
to yelling screaming and fights
I'm tierd of this all
I take the knife of the shelf
press it down as hard as I can
hoping to end it myself
I draw pictures and designs
of memories and pasts
only of the bad times
making no best of the last
deep cuts that will not heal
so I lay there quietly
"I miss my old life
and what my family used to be"
then like everyday
Daddy enters what he doesn't know
he sees a dead body
no longer will his little girl grow
Daddy this time you loose
you can never hurt me again
I can't feel the pain you caused
this time I win
Ive dealed with this for 3 years
and another year wont pass
"there already has been enough bad times"
that Daddy made happen
now you all have read
and heard what everyone had to say
no longer is this my story
for my everyday.
but I stay inside my room
maybe the noise will stop,
sometime soon
Daddy's yelling about money,
Mommy's saying no,
Sissy wants her boyfriend,
to go everywhere we go
I try to keep away,
from everything they say
but this is my life ,
each and every day
I stay there in my room
for about an hour,
I glance at my knife,
and think of all the horror
but I try not to stare
at the shiny reflection,
my wrist all full of scars,
straight lines at perfection
tears stream down my face,
and splash onto the floor
blood runs down my arms,
then daddy comes threw the door
I quickly pull down my sleeve,
and tell him to "get out"
but he doesn't listen,
instead, he begins to shout
hes blaming me for something
that I didn't do
I say "I didn't do anything
how freaking stupid are you"
"I want some time for myself
just leave me the hell alone,
I can't even get any peace
not even in my own home"
he stares at me mad
and slaps me in the face
"Daddy no, please stop"
and my body starts to shake
Anna runs in my room,
and sees daddy there insane
she screams in his face
causing herself pain
he holds her down and hits her,
she tries to get away
but Daddy's there behind her,
holding her arms to stay
after hes done with his job
he says hes sorry for what he did
we always believed him
we were confused kids
he says"don't you dare tell Mommy"
"or else shes gone too"
me and sissy agree
not to tell her what we just went threw
Mommy tucks us in
and we all say goodnight
I wake up the very next morning
to yelling screaming and fights
I'm tierd of this all
I take the knife of the shelf
press it down as hard as I can
hoping to end it myself
I draw pictures and designs
of memories and pasts
only of the bad times
making no best of the last
deep cuts that will not heal
so I lay there quietly
"I miss my old life
and what my family used to be"
then like everyday
Daddy enters what he doesn't know
he sees a dead body
no longer will his little girl grow
Daddy this time you loose
you can never hurt me again
I can't feel the pain you caused
this time I win
Ive dealed with this for 3 years
and another year wont pass
"there already has been enough bad times"
that Daddy made happen
now you all have read
and heard what everyone had to say
no longer is this my story
for my everyday.
