Suicide Baby

[pweddygurl]

I can't breathe, I'm gasping for air.
I grab for your hand, but nobody's there.
You may think I'm just playing a childosh game...
But my blood stained sleeve proves my true pain.

This is not a game, this reality is real.
I don't know how to cope so I cut my wrists to deal.
What on earth could a teenage girl my age have not going right?
Thats what you ll say.
but you come to my house, say just one night.
No one gets me, I'm lost and alone.
So i cut my skin, down to the bone.
I'm crying for help but I don't kno who to turn to.
Can anyone help me?..please tell me who?
Phsychiatrist me a**, They can't do f*** all. Then didn't pick me up when I started to fall.
Trust me I've been there before, They think it's great advice.
Sure it is, they've never cut themselves a day in their life.
No wi lay on my bathroom floor curled up in a ball, I can't take anymore.
I'm probably just another messed up teen to you.
But honestly, You have no idea what I'm going through...

[Erika]

just reading these you do alot of poems on suicide. no matter how often i think about it, I would never hurt myself in any way...do u cut yourself? i sure hope not, but even if, thats a really good poem. alot of teens go through things and parents think they know. It's bothersome that they "know everything" and we know so little. who really knows so much? I think that would be us. We know exactly what we're going through. We just want to help others understand. My boyfriends good friend attemted suicede a couple of months ago. He's at a "Special School" so that he doesn't try again but really people don't understand. Also i love the first 2 lines. they're really expresive.

[pweddygurl]

Um...I used to *looks down in shame* but i dont anymore...i found faith in God and stopped!

[Erika]

sweeeeeeet. go god....i'm actually an atheist, but i still belive that there is a destiny and a fate, so i'm no where close to knives...okay...only a few times...no, not really. lol. I have grown out nails for that

[pweddygurl]

lol yeah...hate it when you let yourself down...and someone else...

[Erika]

i know what u mean...

[pweddygurl]

yup...i always do it...kinda normal for me now...